This is even worse than at the beginning. I don’t know what to do with all these tears. With all this sadness. Crawling into a ball under my desk doesn’t help anymore, the meds don’t help anymore. I don’t know how to cope. It hurts so much. It hurts so much. I want to keep my mind busy but I can’t do anything else but think about him. Please, I don’t want this anymore. Please, I’m trying so hard, but it hurts too much and I can’t handle it. I hurts so much.